The Queen Bee Big Mama was in my room today. She brought the Nurse Supervisor and some other women. They told me my brother called. I was pissed because they are not supposed to give out information about me. They had to acknowledge that I was here to pass a message a long. I’m hoping they didn’t but I’m still pissed that women was up here. She is the Mother Fucking Anti-Christ!
I ran into Tony on LinkedIn. It’s been some time since I’ve talked to him. He told me he’s retired but would not say what happened to the business. He also said John was retired along with Billy. I guess they all cashed in on their 401ks or whatever they had. I considering going back to work part time. I’m getting lazy and need to get more active with something. I don’t think it would to hard to get me hand back but I’m not sure if my eyes are up to the task. Well it’s food for thought anyway. Meanwhile I’ll keep blogging in hopes that someone will actually read this stuff.
I’m a MTurker now. It’s great to be able to make some extra cash online. I wish I could do more online stuff to earn money. I bought a bunch of clothes with the cash I made. I mostly do surveys but there is all sorts of jobs available. Isn’t it great to live in America ?!!
Yesterday was a sad day in America. There was a massive shooting in California where 14 were killed and 17 wounded. This happened because it’s so easy to get a gun in the US says Obama. There are so many guns available on the streets I don’t see how tougher gun laws are going to prevent things like this. Gun Laws seems to be the focus every time something like this happens. People think if they have more control it will make them safer. Well wake up people. Control is an illusion. Nobody has control over mother nature or what goes on in their bodies and certainly no control over a person that got it in their head they are going to shoot somebody. That’s my 2 cents anyway.
How much more crap are we going to take from ISIS? Maybe when the come to your neighborhood? It’s so sad we live in a world with so much violence. I grew up during the Vietnam War and thought it was the last time I’d see such violence against humanity. When will it end? How many innocent people must die? I think it’s time we all got mad and protect our freedoms. Stop supporting strangers coming to our country. Do you know who they really are?
I’m a Turker now. It’s nice being able to buy a shirt or anything else I may need. The weather is getting cooler now so I’m not in distress from the heat everyday. The Mets lost the Series opener last night in KC. This morning I was told no towels were available. I’m convinced I am under the control of Murphy’s Law. Nothing more to report. I am not a very good blogger
Just logged in with my Xubuntu box. It’s Saturday Oct 3. I’m playing Grand Funk on my headset. “I’m your Captain” is on right now. Me and the boys played this a lot back in the day. Now all I need is a “bone” and a black light and I’ll be all set.
Inez Green is leaving! Another one bites the dust. There goes another completely useless Social Worker. She is another one of a long list of social workers that have been unable to help me in any way what’s so ever. This one couldn’t even help me with clothes. She also sided with Big Mama who violates every ethic possible. Well I won’t miss her. I doubt I’ll ever have a social worker help me with my needs. I’m not sure what these damn social workers do but it’s NOT helping people. So long Miss Green. You will not be missed by anyone here.
Depression makes the person only see the world either as black or white. There are no colors available for him. Everybody is an enemy and nobody is a friend. You think that nobody can understand the pain you are going through but you hope that maybe, just maybe someone bothers to understand, someone bothers to care for at least a micro second so that you can feel that tiny hope sunshine that yes, at least someone cares.
You suffer “phases”. Going through some of them, you will shut everyone out and not talk to anyone else because you want to take revenge on the world for leaving you so alone and hopeless, while some “phases” will make you want to talk to someone like your life depends upon it.
You become an underachiever. You start to suck at everything, from A-Z and the most shitty part of all this that you can’t make it go away.
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I feel so relaxed knowing I have a attorney working to get me out of this place. Without the internet I could never had accomplished this. It’s not going to happen over night but just knowing my case is being pursued I feel happy and content. If the staff were more friendly and helpful I probably never would have never gone looking for an attorney. The facility owners and its workers violate every civil right I can think of and must be stopped! Once I have secured my own housing and finances I plan on doing whatever I can to take this place down and find a better place to live for the residents that do not want to be here.
I’ve been sober now for some 26 years and don’t miss the drugs and booze one bit. I can’t remember what it feels like to be drunk or high but I do remember how I felt when I was hung over or out of drugs. I remember talking to my sponsor and telling him there was no way I could stay sober. It was just too hard! That was 26 years ago and I am still able to stay sober a day at a time. The only advice I could give anyone I would be “Don’t Give Up!” I know that sounds cliché but it’s the truth. When a person is going through withdrawal their thinking is way off. I didn’t feel normal for a year when I made the decision to get sober. Even if you are lucky and can get into a 30 day rehab, your journey has just begun. It takes work and dedication to maintain a sober life.