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Should I meet her?

So I’ve been communicating with a woman on Plenty of Fish and she wants to meet me for coffee. The thing is I’ve never met anyone Face to Face without first video chatting. I normally use Skype or Google Talk but she told me she doesn’t have a camera for her computer and wouldn’t know how to work it if she did. Without even thinking I asked if she would like to meet me for a cup of coffee at a Starbucks nearby. She said Yes. Yikes! What did I get myself into?

Suppose I meet her and she’s ugly as sin? Suppose she’s not the age she claims she is and lied about it? What if … What if … Blah Blah Blah. The more I think about it the more anxious I get. Should I call it off? Does her looks and age really matter? We have so much in common I feel like we’ve known each other for years. Yet she really is a stranger to me. What if she’s drop dead gorgeous? I know I’m no catch. Maybe she’ll just laugh and leave me with the bill. I’m having an anxiety attack just thinking about it. Look everyone in Starbucks is laughing at me. Maybe I’ll just not show up at all. Wait…Maybe She won’t show up! Oh man this is bad.

These are the things that go through my BB Brain when I think about meeting a woman Face to Face . I’ve been divorced and single for over 15 years. I’d really like to meet someone but my anxiety disorder can really be paralyzing at times. How will I ever meet someone if I’m afraid to take a chance? I’d love to meet that special woman but I’m my own worst enemy.

Back in the day I had no trouble meeting girls. It was easy. All I had to do was go out to one of the many bars on Long Island. I would bye the girl a drink and ask her she if she would like to dance. 3 or 4 drinks later we were in the backseat of my Chevy Nova. This idea of meeting for coffee is completely foreign to me! I mean what do I say after “Hi, how are you? How do you like your coffee?” Then what? With my luck she’ll tell me she doesn’t drink coffee. Holy Crap! Why are we in Starbucks?

The problem is I gave up “bar hopping” years ago. I gave up the booze too. It’s easy to chit chat once I’ve have a few drinks. After a few more I become John Travolta on the dance floor. “You can tell by the way I use my walk I’m a woman’s time to talk”Staying Alive. Oh Yea baby! Let’s do the “Bump”. Am I giving away my age yet?

Anyway I’d really like to hear a females perspective on this. If I ask a man he’d just say “Just talk to her that’s all” or “You just need an escape plan”. I love it when the advice is “You can meet women at the grocery store ya know”. How does that work?? “Excuse me but that’s a nice steak your looking at. Are you going to cook it or is someone else?” How lame does that sound? Or ” I see you picked out some very nice eggs. How do you like your eggs sunny side up or scrambled?”. Oh yea, that’ll get her attention.

So the jury is still out on meeting this woman for coffee. Should I meet her or not?Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated?

I messed up!

I messed up my access to this blog fooling with the settings. I knew it was a mistake to change things. Now I’m stuck using the WordPress interface and cannot use OpenWriter. Oh well. It’s not the end of the world. This blog is old and slow so I’m going to let it fade into the sunset. I’ll check back now and then just to see if it’s still alive. Who visits here anyway??

That’s about all folks.

A New Post from WordPress

This post come from the wordpress account. Already there’s a problem saving drafts.


    Updated this blog site. The site is hosted on a really slow server so it’s painful to do any adminstrative tasks. I’m finding out a lot of WordPress is a hook and bait scheme. Most of the themes and plugins cost money. One needs to be careful not to get hooked and reeled. They give you a limited page for free but when you start to add the “cool” stuff you will need to use your credit card.

    I started another WordPress page Click here. It’s more secure then the older pages I have. Security has become a big deal so I don’t know if users even visit http sites. The new page is a https site hosted on WordPress and has the latest version of WordPress.

No internet access on Haven Manor. That didn’t last long. There was a major outage in the area but that was 2 days ago. I’ll hope for the best but I don’t think I’ll have it back anytime soon. I’m using the Hotspot connection from my phone. I won’t be working on the web stuff too much. I need to keep my data usage down.

Daily Rant

This is a new post from OpenLive.  My site hosted by WordPress is much faster then motd. That’s probably because the servers are swapping back and forth and checking users and permission. Posting directly to WordPress is a nicer experience.


Open Writer is working fine. This is an avatar I use a lot on the Web. Synchronet is being modernized and now has avatars too. I perfer using the BBS for social networking but I still keep a few WordPress sites updated.

Forward Progress

The blog in setup and I can begin to post. I am using OpenWriter. This is just a post to test the site.

WordPress Blog

WordPress has a millions of users. I’m not sure what the attraction is. I think it’s easier to have a personal page on Facebook. WordPress is fun to mess around with but I don’t think a WordPress page gets nearly as much traffic as a  page on Facebook or Twitter.

I recently joined Netflix again. I like some of the Netflix exclusive series. Beats paying crazy dollars for cable or any of the other pay services. I’ll use it until I watch all the series or run out of movies I like. Now that I have good internet access my options have improved a lot.

Looking for a Life

I trying like hell to move on. Talking to lots of people from the real world. I think they´re are just trying to sound good. I don´t believe they have any intention on helping me. That´s OK. There´s nothing but trouble for me out in the real world. I was supposed have a visitor today at 1:00 – 1:30. It is now 2:00 and nobody had showed up yet. Maybe Ms Green is talking with them trying to persuade them that she is not the anti-Christ. She can talk all she wants but I make all the decisions. Not her. I sent out 20 emails trying to contact someone from the list I was given. I got 2 responses out of all of them. Most did not reply at all and many of the emails bounced! That right there let´s me know there is a lot of incompetent and unreliable service workers out there. I really think it´s just a matter of finding someone that wants to help and has the resources to do so.


Finally after 4 years the facility has given me wifi access. I’m not sure how long it’s been available. I haven’t asked for it since I got here. It’s a little flakey. It doesn’t like my external antenna sometimes. It’s probably a MAC address thing. So what else is going on? I’m slowly fading away but that’s OK. I’m not happy so making an exit would not bother me. My legs and feet are getting worse. I saw a vascular guy and he told me eventually sores will develop and I’ll need surgery. Two agencies are working on my case to get me out of here but I know that’s a long shot. I have to keep my legs elevated so I’m in bed a lot. That’s it for now.


Wow! This site is slow. I wonder why? Is because wordpress has millions of users? Who would use wordpress when it’s so sloooooow. I know nobody is going to see my page so I’m not the cause of the slooooownesss. Ok enough said. I’m just messing around.

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